An easily hyped up girl who goes crazy over Tokio Hotel and is a diehard fan of Bill Kaulitz. She dreams of being thin one day, or perhaps having her own dance concert, which both are very impossible.
You know it feels really weird? With so many people around me, all I want to do and all I feel like doing is to stay away from everyone else and just watch the world go by. It’s an overwhelming feeling but sometimes I do enjoy that. Mainly because I have something which I need to figure out, or I need to calm myself down or some other reasons which I can’t think of right now at this very moment.
Sometimes when I feel it’s unfair to me, I’ll step aside and think. What if I quit? What will happen next? How will the others think? Are they going to treat me nicely even if I’m gone? Should I do it? The questions just run through my head again and again, till I finally get it and make the right decision.
So now, tonight, I’m feeling the same too. I feel like I just want to lie in my bed, do nothing but to think about all the complicated things in my head for hours and hours. How I wish I can do that? But I can’t, you see. I’ve got so much work to do! And I don’t want to make quick decisions under pressure; I’ll make the wrong decision. Yes, I definitely will. I’m doing something against my will but I have to do it, the question is, why? I do not know…….
I have no idea why I’m even doing it, I don’t know. It’s as if it’s just, common sense to me, but I feel bad, seriously bad. I don’t know how I used to think that it’s logical but right now, it just doesn’t make any simple sense to me.
Will you forgive me if I confess? Will you accept me if I confess? How will you feel when I confess? What will happen to me if I confess? No one’s willing to tell me the truth They don’t need to because The truth lies on the path That I have to travel Someday…
