Sigh i had a weird dream today. I dreamt of my grandfather. The scene was when i went back to Beijing and then my grandfather was so happy and excited as if he found back his youth again. Then in the dream i cried because i was so ignorant towards him but he still was happy to see me. After that i woke up, forcefully. The pain at my heart was unbearable. Literally pain you know? Not the heart attack kind of pain, it's like, as if you've lost something and it feels weird. I started to shed tears when i looked back at my past. 我太不懂事了. Guilt... Regret... It's too late to change the past but i still have my future.


It's nice to have friends. But soon it becomes hatred. I'm stuck in the middle and sinking faster and faster. Either i go to the left or right. No such thing as middle. Because sooner or later, i will make my decisions. The influence is too huge. No way i can remain innocent. No way i can remain as the p6 girl. No way i can be neutral if i do not want to be a loner. It's complicated but that's just the way it is. Face it.


Uhhhhhhhhhhh... Actually, it's really vague so er, don't take it as what you're thinking about.


And i'm soooo touched!!! Jiaqi and yajiun reads my blog!!!!!!!!!! *cries!!!*