An easily hyped up girl who goes crazy over Tokio Hotel and is a diehard fan of Bill Kaulitz. She dreams of being thin one day, or perhaps having her own dance concert, which both are very impossible.
Sorry i should totally be sleeping but i wanna say something.
You know, sometimes it's a good thing not having a goal for life in mind and just let things happen on its own than trying to control over everything? Because in this way we enjoy life, we appreciate life. Life isn't a rush, life is a joyable thing. Well it will be if people's aim is just to have big houses, earn a lot of money etc. In this way we're gonna be really stiff and straight about it. Then it isn't fun anymore!!!! HAVE FUN YEAH!!! Because i feel that i'm losing it.
Why do i live for? For money? For big comfortable sports cars to show off to all my friends and other people that i'm rich? To show off to those who said,"WHAT? YOUR FAMILY DON'T HAVE A CAR??!! WHOA..."? To show off to my kids' friends that we're a rich family? For big house so that next time when my kids grow up they are not afraid to invite people to their house because their house is big and they won't be embarrassed? For a really handsome guy who claims to be my love? To show off to my girlfriends that i have a hot guy? For my grades? For my job? For my hobbies? For gym? For dance? For my appearance? For competitions? For fame? For a sense of winning? I DON'T KNOW. ALL THESE QUESTIONS COME FLOODING INTO MY HEAD EVERY NOW AND THEN AND I DON'T KNOW HOW TO ANSWER THEM.
They say just to live like no one's looking/caring. But do you think it's actually possible? Do you think it actually makes sense? Do you think you can, let's not talk about becoming famous, let's just say, for basic survival, do you think you can even SURVIVE in the society if you do that? It's impossible! We are shaped by those around us! So, are we living for other people?
This is all getting into a mess. I just wanna sit in a corner, cry, look at old photos of myself. Young, alive, full of hopes, ambitious, naive... And you see me now? I don't even know who i am. What i'm supposed to be. Am i supposed to be emo? Am i supposed to be happy? I don't know. I've wrapped myself up in thousands and thousands of pieces of clothes that even now i can't undo them!!! I bet this is what other people do too! It's so fale yet people can't take off their masks. So isn't this a mad world? Exactly what the lyrics say!!!!!!!!
