I'm turning into something i don't recognise anymore. This is really bad because i'm just letting myself sink into the bad side. My grades are dropping (i can feel it), not that i care about them so much but i'm forced to. Face the truth, i'm still in a school, i'm still studying. And what does this mean? Simply means that i'm surrounded by nerds.

You know, money and comfort aren't the goals of my life. I know that they are important, but they aren't something that i'm working hard for! I just want freedom and the courage to do something i really like. Well if money and comfort come along, it'd be perfect.

There's something seriously wrong with me. I think i should have some me-time (like what Mrs Ang said) and reflect upon my actions. I'm not planning my time well, i'm not doing anything productive, i'm not living my life to the fullest! I AM NOT EVEN PLANNING FOR MY LIFE. WHICH I SHOULD BECAUSE SUBJECT COMBI JUST AROUND HALF A MONTH AWAY AND I STILL DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.

DANCE. DIETITIAN. DOCTOR. TEACHER. TOUR GUIDE.
Out of the 5, i swear that dance is the coolest, followed by tour guide. These are such interactive jobs that i really want to do when i grow up! Well of course, these are not the ideal ones that normal people will think of. Pffft. I shall think about it and try talking to my parents.

Submitted CAP mentorship things today and felt really relieved! I've decided on something. I need to get away from all these CAP things and get back to my own life. CAP has ended on 4 June 2010, there are of course other ways of continuing but for the time being, it has ended. I cannot be thinking about it every single day of my life. I can already feel that my other non-CAPper friends are feeling excluded and i do not want to make them feel that way. Plus talking about one thing continuously just makes me get really sick of it. It's just like how i hate "eenie meenie" now. I'm serious. That's another reason why i never want to listen to "do you remember" again. I'm sounding really strange huh? Haha.

Anyway, i have to get started on Math and History and SIP and research a bit more on dance. You know i just feel so hyped up whenever i think about it! IT'S AS IF I AM GOING TO DANCE FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE! Oh wells, in the end i may not since i'm not that good ;)

I CAN'T WAIT TO START HIP HOP OMG WHEN CAN I LEARN IT WHY IS MY LIFE SO NERDY I WANT TO HAVE A LIFE. MY LIFE IS NOT FULL OF TEXTBOOKS AND WORKSHEETS.

I've changed so much. I used to think that schoolwork is really fun! Now, i'm just disgusted by the sight of pieces of assignments. DAMN.