Hmm today didn't start well, got screamed at by my mum cos Eunice didn't return me my blouse (yes don't ask me what's her problem). I was so overwhelmed that i FRIGGIN' CRIED ON THE BUS AND DO YOU KNOW HOW PATHETIC I BET I LOOKED LIKE?! ): I was so hurt! I mean, not that i lost my blouse right? Plus i would take care of the so called "missing blouse" and what has it got to do with her?

From this, i can actually conclude that my way of expressing myself when i'm pissed is through silence. Seriously, when i'm SUPER pissed with my parents (it has never happened to anyone else except for them before), i can go silent the whole day. Maybe just a "yes" or "no" will get me through the day. My parents have so many ways to let me know that they're pissed, by screaming, by whacking (ok it never did before), and well, by daoing me. OH WTF AREN'T THEY TIRED OF IT?! I AM! What's the point?

YOU THINK BY SCREAMING AT ME WILL ACTUALLY MAKE ME A BETTER PERSON? I really wanna tell you, the more you do it, the more i'll do it. I even had the thought of leaving home you know, which was really depressing and irresponsible of a child.

I swear, if i ever have a family of my own, i'm definitely gonna be a cool mum. Not someone who shouts at her children and never know how emotional she really is.