Hello :) I feel like blogging tonight. It's been a long time since i last had this kinda mood. So many things have happened recently and i want to record them down, in case i forget about them. I need to keep these memories tightly sealed up somewhere, in my mind, in my diary, in this blog, wherever. I can't afford to lose all these because it's value is beyond my ability to count.

First, i would like to say HELLO to November! Whoa i can't believe i just missed the whole of October just like that! I mean, it was as if we were still taking our EYAs yesterday! I suddenly remember the afternoon after our geog paper, when i lazed around in the gymnasium, watching seniors practise for gym concert. Haiya, i feel like an auntie when i say this but REALLY, TIME FLIES AT THE SPEED OF ROCKETS! Before i could realise it, i'm already graduating from sec 2! IT'S SO FAST THAT IT'S SCARYING ME!

Now now, i better hurry up and finish this post, my mum's been asking me to off the comp for the 1000th time.

I just got notified today that i got into Chi RA. Ok it didn't come as a surprise or anything to me. My reaction was just, oh, ok, yeah. I kind of expected it. OK I'M NOT TRYING TO SOUND PRO HERE but really, i think those who got selected to go for Chi RA selection test would eventually get into Chi RA, most of them. They can't possibly cut down anymore if not we can't form a RA class. The problem is, i don't know whether i want to take it or not. I'm not the "WHOOHOOO I LOVE CHINESE IT'S SO FREAKIN' AWESOME" sort, neither am i the "YUCKS I HATE CHINESE" sort. I'm neither good nor bad in Chinese, just average. Hey i'm serious, i know myself. I can't write for nuts. I'm not very satisfied with my standard, really. I don't want to feel "loser-ish" next year because i know that i would be one of the lousier ones if i go for Chi RA. I NEVER want to be pressurized by the amount of workload. I'm just not very passionate about joining the RA class leh. HOW?! I scared i'll make the wrong decision! GAH. Ok i'll flip a coin.

Today, i cried my eyeballs out. Haha figuratively. It was the sec 4 graduation but ironically, 207'10 cried harder than some of the sec 4s .___. Actually right, i have no idea why i even started crying! I felt tears rushing up to my eyes many times during the farewell. The first time was when the sec 4s started walking down the amphitheater. I saw all my seniors and thought to myself,"Wow, this is it, their last official day as an RGS girl." And i just had to control the tears because i would be very embarrassing if i started crying RIGHT IN THE MORNING! I felt that kinda rush a lot of times during the concert and finally let it all out when the whole school sang songs together. I was wailing but couldn't hear myself, because the music and the screams were so loud! When i hugged all my dearest classmates, i could feel my shoulders jerking and rubbing against theirs. I thought of all the things i've gone through this year. At the beginning of the year, i wrote down in my diary about my first impression of each teacher; in the middle of the year, i attended CAP; at the end of the year, i chiong-ed super hard for EYAs and extra extra hard for concert. All these are the best that have happened to my life. And really, 2010 has been the most wonderful year of my life so far! I've fully adjusted to my class, my new school, my new CCA, my new teachers, EVERYTHING! I was getting so comfortable with everything and suddenly BAM, we all have to go on separate ways now. It's hard to believe how different we would be next year. Though we'll still see each other in school, it won't ever feel the same again. And worse, i won't see my seniors in school anymore! No more messing around with them, no more scary mood swings, no more cool and funny things DX The thoughts saddened me ttm. I just kept thinking about 2010, kept repeating the different scenes, kept telling myself not to forget this year. I love you so much 2010, i really do.

And to all my seniors: please do not forget RGS, do not forget your juniors! Enjoy your time in RJ and tell me whether the guys there are as hot as Bill Kaulitz (i bet not lor. HAHAHAHA WTS)! If you have the time, come back and visit us! OR GO ON FB OFTEN! We'll miss you! :(

And this is to you, fairies up in the air: Hello, this is the first time i'm not talking to you with my eyes close and hands in front of me. Um, i just wanted to tell you guys how grateful i am. You know at first i didn't believe in 11:11, until one day, during my EYA revision, i realised that i had nothing to hold on to. I didn't believe in any religions and it must be good to have at least some hope out there huh? So i made a wish to you! For the first time in my life. I told you what i hoped for and promised to give something in return. I'm not sure if you've already taken that from me, but i'm so glad that my wish came true. All my wishes came true! For EYAs, for gym concert, for good weather today, i just hope i can do something in return. If dropping my magazine, my phone, my comb and my clip into the toilet bowl, missing my stop on the way to school, not getting gym concert tickets, getting scolded by parents for being unreasonable when they're being unreasonable are your ways of taking something away from me, well then you're fair enough. I have gotten exactly what i wished for and have sacrificed something in return. I'm glad it's a mutual thing :) Ok if it's not, at least tell me what i should do. Drop me a note in my dream or something. Let me know, because i will definitely have to make more 11:11 wishes in the future.

Thanks for reading, i actually have more but i'm really tired now. So i'll end off here. Good night world, i hope you'll have a sweet dream :) Hey seniors, i think i'll dream of you tonight :O Haha let's see.