I just came back from training and guess what, I SERIOUSLY DIED. The first training after our 23 December break was last Thursday, and i completely died. I cried when shen laoshi stepped on me damn it it felt like hell! Ah and it was so embarrassing cos i really didn't expect it. I tried holding back the tears but my legs were just so pain that they burnt! Gosh that was the most embarrassing moment i can remember. Then last Saturday was quite bad also cos Zuo laoshi (our new coach!) stepped on my right leg. Cos my legs still had not recovered from Thursday's ya-ing, my right leg was completely stiff. AHHH AND SOME MORE SHE HELD FOR A LONG TIME! I felt my tears coming out but i managed to control it. HENG AH! Ok then after that i went for OBS. Great. Today, die again lah! My everything was so screwed up i felt like killing myself. Ok maybe not my back. My back is slowly improving. Still, it's not as good as how i was before concert :(

Hmmm OBS has ended! I can't believe how 5 days just flew past like that :O It somehow felt like CAP! Both were 5 days, both were from Mon-Fri, i used the same bag, i cried on the last day. YES I CAN'T BELIEVE I ACTUALLY CRIED ON FRIDAY WALAO THIS IS THE SECOND EMBARRASSING MOMENT! Luckily Jingyi and i cried together, if i was the only one, my face will be burnt like crap.

The truth is, i didn't really enjoy the 5 days thoroughly. I felt that i had gone with the wrong group of people. I tried to enjoy all the activities while they lasted but people just kept whining and complaining about things. I mean, how you wanna spend your 5 days is really up to you. Either you smile through it and make yourself feel good, or you sulk and make your life difficult for yourself.

Haha but ok after all, i did love OBS a lot! I shan't use the word fun because it wasn't fun. It's a damn wrong word to describe OBS. OBS was tough and challenging like shit. If you don't feel uncomfortable during OBS, then buddy you've gone to the wrong camp. I really couldn't stand some things which they made us do, such as trekking almost 9km for 7-8hours with a bag as heavy as 10kg (perhaps), but i just told myself to keep on going and stop complaining, cos anyway there wasn't any other options for us. In the end, it all felt so good. Oh no memories are slowly slipping away, i can't remember much about OBS already :( This is the bad thing about not blogging on the day itself.

I shall wrap up now because i still have to shower and rest for a while before going for tuition. Crap lah i have so much work to do! School only lasted 3 days for us so far and i have homework for EVERY SINGLE SUBJECT excluding lit and including French and tuition! DAMN.

Maybe it still hasn't sunk in that i'm already sec 3 and those i love are no longer around. What am i gonna do? I have this hunch that people are not accepting me, like i'm too uncool for them. I need to stop being so imaginative. Or maybe it's all true. Who knows, it feels so unreal.